Used

Christ placed his hand upon my cheek and smiled before He sent me down into the world. "She's going to be a a good one," he said of me with confidence. "This girl's a fighter. She's going to get things done." He armored me with a strong, willing heart and sent me to bare witness to His truth.

I'm not sure if that's what really happened, but I like to imagine that it went something like that. I like to think of myself as a star player that God was saving for the right moment. I like to think that on March 23, 1986, God called one of His star players onto the field. I like to think that on the day that I was born, I was exactly what the world needed.

But what did I have to offer the world? Why did God choose me that day?

24 years later, I am still trying to figure it out. So far, these are the only clues I have about who God wants me to become:

1. He gave me a burning passion for writing and expression.
2. I like to be in charge.
3. I like to entertain.
4. I seem to have a niche for making people laugh.
5. I'm a dreamer.
6. I can make a pretty good case for anything when I feel like debating.
7. I like to be challenged in abstract ways (for example, being challenged to inspire)
8. I am a hopeless romantic who still believes that true love does exist and can last forever.
9. I have an opinion. On everything.


...all of the above is kind of why I am blogging now. I'm pretty sure God wants me to say something, most likely in writing. Why else would He bless me with a love for writing, expression, entertaining, and debating? There are so many things that I want to say, but I am still not sure what it is that He needs the world to hear through me. I'm just putting everything out there in hopes that somebody will filter out the useless stuff in my blogs and get the meaning from the rest. I'm assuming that I'll only have a handful of followers on this blog (consisting primarily of my parents, siblings, and a few dedicated friends), and that's fine with me. If what God's trying to say through me ends up on this blog, I know He'll lead the right reader to its content.

I never want the writing on this page to become self-serving. In fact, I should go ahead and add this disclaimer: none of what I say belongs to me. It all belongs to God. Every genuine thought, idea, or emotion I express was given to me by Him only so that I might share it with others. I'm only a vehicle for His word.

Don't be misled by the blogsite title ("Pieces of Me"). This isn't about me. It's about the pieces of me that God chose. It's about finding out how I can serve God by serving others. Because my heart is naturally full of wickedness, I know there will be times when I allow myself to say too much and God to say too little. Do me a favor--humble me on the days that I weigh too heavily on my own opinion indendently from God's. Remind me that it's not about me.

My prayer as I begin this blog is that I will be used. Whatever it is that He wants me to say, I pray that God will let it flow from my heart. Whoever God sent me here to reach, I pray that I will reach them. I pray that more people will challenge themselves to discover His will for their lives.

May you be used every day of your life :P